Despressed

I'm depressed... truly madly deeply depressed. Yesterday I waited for 6 whole damn hours just to sit for the L liscence test. actually my instructor told me that I could sit for the exam in the morning and then go for bangkel theory, which is also 6 hours, then I can take my L liscence 2 days later. but that stupid center which has a total of 15 computers, left only 4 that's working. and there're around 80 people who's gonna sit for the exam yesterday. what made me even more angry was, there's this girl who came in really late, but she got to take the exam not more than half an hour later. thanks to that stupid malay stuff there who's been playing her ICQ all day and made so damn much mistakes. if I was not mistaken, it should be my turn instead of that girl's. so a lot of people, especilly some malays who also waited for ages just to sit for the exam started to scold that malay girl with words like "babi" and so on. and all she knew was just to smile stupidly in return. damn her! but thank God I pass the exam anyway, 43 over 50, damn close to failure. I actually told myself that if I were to fail the exam after waiting for that damn whole 6 hours, I'll change my name! such an irresponsible person! she should be fired! I'll be attending the bangkel theory class tomorrow. EERRHH!!! 6 more hours again! but think on the brighter side, I can start learning driving next week and get my P liscence soon by end of next week! I just can't wait!

went to chuch today to practice my dance for the Christmas concert. I hate my knees! I just can't kneel down at all and it's really hurting. my blur black on them are getting worse and worse everytime I do that particuar step. but to think that I'm sacrificing for God, that acatully comfort me a little. then talked to Chui Pik a little about the new worship team and bla bla bla. I know I'm not as good as Rachel and others but I'm looking forward and hoping to learn more about worship and then stand as a new worship leader leading the team and others to come back to the heart of worship. God bless me!

I feel kinda depressed with Thong. he's just so emotional and EERRRGGHH~! I'm not gonna call him for a short period. at least for the moment. he's so killing me!