feeling loaded today. loaded with food!!! feeling so full for the past few days. I even ate nasi lemak this morning!!! I so wanna vormit or let the shitz go but somehow something must be wrong with my digestion system.
Was chatting with Carly few days ago. The girl I've been red eyeing all along, the girl Thong would fight over for. She was... I dunno. It's not I'm trying to do anything. That particular night I was cleaning Thong's room while he was alseep. yeah, he was asleep while I was cleaning his room! anyway, I was keeping everything in place and tidied up almost everything. I even help him to reset his alarm so that he wouldn't wake up and sleep till the next day. Then suddenly his phone rang. I thought it was his second alarm or something and so I quickly press any button at all to stop the ringing. but then only I realized it was actually Carly (he used to call her Kelly...). being a good hearted and hati tikus girlfriend, I used Thong's phone to sms her back, told her that I was sorry and explaine about my mistakes. She then started to chat with me. But the first sms she wrote was already asking me to help her to solve her family and relationship problem. I was like... what the hell...
I was going to go home. But I did try my best to help her. So I gave her my hp number and told her to sms to my phone if she really wants to chat, and also because I don't want to wake Thong up cause I wouldn't like to be scold.
After I went home, her smsed me... very slowly. After a few message, she told me that she's a christian. And so I started telling her to deal things in a Christian's perspective. then she didn't reply.
Not until last night. She sent a reply saying she was asleep and was busy in the morning, that's why she replied late... very late.
well, no comment.
Might go for the project Superstar. Not in a competition mood, but rather a just-to-have-fun-and-gain-experience mood. Thong doesn't know about it and I'll make sure he won't know. or else? I'll be doom!
Been seeing Thong for the past 4 days. But won't be seeing him this weekend. I told him I have meeting on Saturday, but actually is Christmas project's practice. sigh... why is my life so miserable!?!??!?!?
I am very depress now. I don't think I can take it any longer. Is our love for each other gone cold or is it something wrong between us or it's just normal? recall back those memories, when he used to be so excited when he sees me, when he's so eager to hold my hands infront of his friend as though he wants to show how much he loves me for the world to see, when he'd be smilling like an angel after a few days of seperation...
They no longer exsist. These lil things don't exsist anymore. Maybe I hurt him. Maybe I never really appreciate it when they still exsist. Maybe the fire isn't there anymore. Maybe he's numbed. I don't know! But I know it hurts so badly...
sigh... all I want for Christmas, is for him to treat me better... just a lil bit will do.
hey, there's this new singer, a guy one, I think his name is Alex Lee Gang Lin or something. Man! he's the voice! I don't usually fall for singers just like that, but this guy is marvelous! I saw him sang live on Entertainment News few days ago and... I'm so gonna buy his album!!! He's really one new voice that... has so much OMPH!! gotta check him out!
ok, that is all
(note: didn't go for the Project Superstar. all ffk... there you go...)
No comments:
Post a Comment