Confusion

So I did keep my words not to call Thong for the whole day. He did call me though, when he reach home from work. just one call and that's it for the rest of the day. it was actually kinda ok for me. I felt a lil lonesome but hack who cares? I'm suppose to go to his place later this evening. My grandma called me just now. She wants me to go over to her place tonight to dine together. but as I told her that I already have a date tonight, she was like, ok, so you're all grown up and it's time for grandma to get out of your life huh?

that's so untrue. then she put down the phone.

5 minutes later she called back and told me that she was mugged this morning on her way back from the market. her necklace that worth thoursand over was gone. but her purpose is just to remind me to be more carefull. it kinda made me feel a little guilty. as everybody knows that my grandma loves me the most among all her grandchildren. I know I was rather hard on her on the phone just now, and also dissapointed her for studying music. same as my mom, she wants me to be some pro. the only difference is my mom wants me to be like Ally McBeal while my grandma wants me to be a doctor. I'm sorry for dissapointing the both of you, but i just don't want to torture myself to do something I dislike. I think I still love myself more. maybe after I get my driving liscence and are able to drive grandpa's car, I'll visit her more often and have meal with her whenever I'm free. I remember when I was young, I stay with my grandparents since both of my parents... "don't really wanna take care of me". And I remember once I told grandma while she was cooking in the kitchen that I would cook for her and stay with her forever when I grow up. I even promised her that I will not married so that I could take care of her 24seven. I never forget this promise I made. I know it's impossible for me to stay single forever, but I'll definitely take care of her as long as she's still living. I love her. Thong knows the best. cause when I actually missed her, the only person I turn to is Thong. Not even one of my family members knows that I actually really love her cause I never express so infront of them. Actually I love everyone in the family. It's just that, times are different now. We don't have time for each other as often as we used to be right now.

Ok, I feel like crying...