family love

I was home alone all day, except for the past 4 hours just now. went to my aunt's place for dinner. it was really warmth since my aunties and grandmother are still so caring for me. they actually called me up and invite me for dinner at the same time. but I went to my third aunt's place instead since big aunt is kinda rush with her schedule. I honestly felt like crying when all of the sudden the kind of family warmth came back. as I thought they won't bother about me anymore for I'm all grown up and going on independently. but it was really REALLY touching... when it's all coming back so suddently. I never felt like this before for ages already. I remember when I was little and being the youngest in the family (before both of my step brothers was birth) and also the first grandchild of their only son, everybody just love to bring me everywhere and call me every now and then. I especially enjoy my time with my cousins though they're at least 4 years older than me while the eldest is 13 years older since I have no sibling yet. but as we grow, they have their own life, girlfriends, boyfriends... I miss them a lot. seriously! I really really miss them. espcially Elaine.

geesss... I feel like crying again...

Thong went to Sg Wang today with Qiong after work. just a bath and off they went. I told him I was bored at home all day. he asked if I would like him to come over. I was actually pleased. but he's just asking. it was rather dissapointed actually. I really wish he comes. but he has to accompany Qiong. and then I felt like crying again. I don't know whether he heard it but... better not. I hate to explaine if he ever ask why.

home alone sucks. maybe some of you think it's cool cause you can do whatever you want. but if you've been home alone often since you're really young, let's say 7 or 8, you'll feel numb eventually. and so I watch the 5 vcds Chui Pik lend me. it's about dating, a more christianity style. so Jesus was with me and trying to tell me something. guess I'm not totally alone anyway. Jesus is always by my side.